Again a looong interval between 2 posts!! My blog has all rights to think im really selfish!  Ive turned from a loyal blogger to lazy blogger!!  Dr.dadu is married and R is the best thing happened to the entire family in 2011.. I have successfully come past the fear of new woman in the house.. We share a bond which was needed, needed to help me to know theres no harm sharing & the more the merrier! I adore her! Totally!! This post because im feeling sick! Not ill just sick! Something's in my heart n head n stomach a turmoil which i cant figure out! Maybe leaving it that way is best for NOW!  K is turning 21 in a months time! Il be with her on her 21st regardless of anything that happens! I miss A we've finally stopped talking! I regret the one year of not valuing her! As they say you never know whats good unless its gone n found something else or in this story someone else!! The vacuum of E and A and my friendship might be there, n there for a .. Maybe its best i dont give answers to questions which are time based!! Im not happy, i dont like the fact im turning 21 this year! That means more of societys non sense! N less of the dramatic cheerfull me! Talking to AP ive realised we never grow up, we just learn to act properly in public! Im not liking alot of things around me! Like alot of them! But with age im learning to be tolerant!  All i really want is to be powerful woman and have everything and anything! This is no GG script! But yes! There's something i havent figured out about life! Sounds like one of the psychedelic crap, but someone telling you that "im bored of talking to you" or "you're really boring" can hit me like a hailstone and get me thinking. I'm sorry but i never have, or will doubt myself! Nothing can take my glow away not age not people who loathe me or any one on the face of earth! Yes i adore myself! The most not to forget!  I shouldnt be blogging when exams are only fortnight away .. But i had to spill this somewhere! N my blogg is my space! No one has the right to complain about it! Its my effing space! This whole month sucks! Even the next month will till i dont go n meet K And and and! Pikachu my true niggguh! My buddy , my morale ! We have patched up! If any saddist minx thought she could take my niggguh away! Sorry to slam the door of my luck on the face of your delusion! We are still besties like a knot! I have learnt that i need SOS in dealing with my jealousy, insecurity n impatience ! But again what have i mentioned about being about to morph myself into the mould of others want ?!?  I will have a breakdown soon! When? I dunno but i will! Soon! Considering the current life plot!  Written a bit too much eh? I guess my hormones are going coo coo with exams , fights , anxiety and all most all emotions invented by us evil humans!  "I'm not anyone, I'm me, not a swing by but a destination"  Rest later! Xoxo  am an ECHO... Whatever I get, I give it Back.... I am a MIRROR.. Whatever I see, I show it Back... -- from redefining abstractions blog <3