Yay! I have superceeded myself tonight! I have done 80% of what i was to do.. High time! Yeah i can hear birds chirping, and i can feel the sun rise ! How metophoric! Haha! I spoke to RO i am so glad to have done that done that because i could actually study! =D !!! Fabulus me! ;)


p.s. K is almost back in action! I hope things go great! Our friendship is wierd nothing can slit us forever! For sometime yes things go completly wrong!



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Shouldnt i be sleeping by now, with a peacefull mind? Yes, i should have. But i dint study what i had planned it to be like i tried for best maybe my best was good enough! I am too bored blog also! Maybe thats because i am upset with myself! I miss RO and A terribly. Ro is off to dubai for a month, the place without him is so plain and boring! I shall get some sleep now!


Rest laters
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i will be (hopefully) done with

1. regulating charter act of 1773
2. charter act of 1793
3. charter act of 1813
4. charter act of 1833
5. charter act of 1853
6. press developments in India
7. revolt of 1857

P.s. i JUST have to finish with this!!!!!! :S or else i am screwed for life

i heart this

"If women ran the world, there wouldn't be any wars, but there would be entire nations that wouldn't speak to each other"

this is so true! =D , I do that!

P.s. Betty has the distinct art of finding such hilarious quotes!

this is not done! i am bound to study when the pressure of exams is exerted from all the sides, but this time it isnt working! i cant study! i JUST CANT!!! like i have nothing better in life then doing NOTHING! doing nothing keeps busy! busy that i dont sleep !! zhitt! help me, the angel from my nightmare, help me to study!! i mean MAKE ME STUDY!

P.s. zhitt= shitt! a new innovation again! =P

"Those people who tell me that I'm going to hell while they're going to heaven somehow make me glad that we're going in separate directions ..."

haha.. this is hillarious! =D

Yayiee!this is my 100th post! Wow i feel so writer-ish. =P BUT, i have been busy like busy with ipl cricket matches, and most importantly i have renewed my promise to myself and betty! The very famous "pakka kal se" is what i applied. From tomorrow my dear bloggu and betty you shall see a ps about how well did i keep my promise..and am still in post excitement mode for the ipl. I saw all hot and famous players! I saw sachin tendulkar and he just is so lucky, ofcourse he has worked very hard for it. But when i saw people taking efforts just to see him hit his famous sixs and fours i was kinda jealous, i know foolish me. But i am proud to have him around when i am alive. the entire stadium was worshiping him. I read this in a interview of the most flexible actor "nasiruddin shah" he said "anyone who'd say he doesnt want to be famous, would be lying." so i so despartly want to be famous, like i can kill for fame! Lol

P.s i have exactly 30days for my last sem exams! I need start studying! I just need to.. :S

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after winning over the lame-clumsy&lazy me- the foes of myself, i finally decide to blog! There is so much i have to write but from where to start?? And how to start! However, i choose the most controversial topic, duh! Offcourse me,myself & I. Off lately I have been trying to figure myself out, but then i realised how do i expect others to understand me, when i myself fail to do so! And i know few people who will tell me that the "someone " who will understand me like noone else is my true love and shitty things! But love?!?! Well lets keep that aside, its not the priorty right now! Or maybe it is! I am a contradiction myself! Getting back to figuring myself out! I am not the total "oh-la-la'' types, not the totaly blingy with butterflies around, i am not the daddys princess, i am not a geek, i am not a nerd, i am not a low profile, i am not comman girl next door, i am not material girl, well after all these types where i dont indentify myself with these humanly made groups to make people feel awesome and terrible at the same time. And no i hate that one liner saying " i am, what i am" or i am what i need to be! If i was what i need to be then, by now i should have been in bed with all the signs of responsible grown up adult, which clearly i am not! As R had said every character has layers! But i am just one whole chunk! I thought i am the bad girl with evil plans to destroy every human i hate, lol so by now if i would have done that i would have been a boon to mother nature because the population exsisting problem would have come to an end! I find happiness in the smallest things, you dont need to gift me prada's , and channel but not that these things wont make me go gaga! But all i seek for is happiness! I have been sending food over to my grandmom, and the call when she tells me it was brilliant, i feel like i cant find a appropriate word, yeah, my vocabulary sucks lately. When in movies the lovers just say few things and yes i have tears is my eyes! This is so strange like i dont know whats happening! This whole figuring myself things isnt like a cosmic event of earthly significance! I have the saint and sinner in me who play thier parts on my demand. I realise i want to do everything like law,photography,hair dressing, designing, salsa professional, event managing and even journalism and then later polictics! I love weddings! They are the most beautifull days of a man's and woman's life! And i have been planning its for last 4years like a maniac! From the drapes, to music to food to location to clothes just everything. Now that i know some tricks which people use for flawless skin i over think how stupid can i or people be to believe that the on screen faces are the same off screen, they must be having problems like just any other girl. But they have the money to fix it with corrective surgeries and highly expensive cosmetics treatments! All my parents can afford me is clinique being the highest! Not that i am unhappy but then when i think if i can afford the custom made dresses from the class statement designers like valentino, dior and on lower ones even like fendi! But then again how can i afford not to have those in my wardrobe! The greed inside me is like the galaxy i keep falling deeper but i havnt found the point of satiety! And out of no where i hate pop songs! I love classic rock and just the sufi songs. My code of conduct has been parallel to the x axsis(mybehaviourpreviously) with a slight slope upwards. Hahahaha. This post makes me feel just the "FABULUS ME" =D


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Back to mobile blogging!!! :)

new layout, new stickers, WHY AM I BEHAVING LIKE A KID?? well, its my own space and ill do exactly what pleases me!!

Ps. effects of a boring sunday! :P

i am playing the SAINT and the sinner! i have split personality disorder..

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Why is the sunday afternoon so abstract!

P.s. i had a nice chat with N and RO last night! much fun! :)

There is so much i want to write about almost everything! I am sure A is thinking he has succeeded in pushing me away and stuff but hes so wrong!! this heat here can roast me! i am having a sauna bath like everything 2hours! ill turn into size zero with this sweat! LOL okay i exaggerate too much! but ill write! i really will! once i get off with the heat!


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Women are insecure bitchy jealous and brain dead!
exceptions ARE :D

Betty: this is for u
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe


LOL, she knows me pretty well! :) as i wrote in my previous post i knew exactly what to do tomorrow it just worked out almost they way i thought it will. What a killer day it was.

Okay wait! I have something to pen down! I am so excited about what i am actually doing right now! By day i am a agitated law student by midnight i turn into a aspiring *ssshh*! Okay now as to why is a secret, because when go gaga about something that i am doing or i want to do, i end up just giving it up.. But boy that aint happening this time. N is just so easy to deal with! Not fussy and pricy like most of the talented jerks. The new teacher on the block! ;) and no all the fun happening right now doesnt make me feel great is this sick heat! I am on bed knowing exactly what i have to do tomorrow. =D

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DONT WANT TO PEN anything today!! :P

P.s. i hate summer

BOMBAY 360 from nishit dayal on Vimeo.

I dont exactly remember when to be precise, but betty and me were in the phase "lets meet new people" . So what better then FB . I added few people out of which one guy was N whos pictures really attracted me. after months of adding him past few days i have been speaking to him, not alot. So, today was gudhi padwa the "new year" but it was HOT outside for me to actually chill and celebrate. But i did do some bit of cooking and stuff but i slept alot! i am dehydrated and the heat is killing my gall bladder! =P cold coffees and diet cokes nothing cold is working but not that well to satisfy my DRY AND ITCHING throat. I thought i would facebook abit from laptop today ( fb from phone isnt actually fbing :P ) and N was online somehow i love saying HI first, it gives me the upper hand! in what?? even i dont know!=P betty and me were discussing my secret get away and i was on other hand watching this video by N. Isnt it just brilliant not that i havent seen people making such videos before. So, why i did i post this on my blog? no i am not biased towards my FB friend but there emotions in the video i can see through! i really liked! i dont appreciate easily but i liked it =)

I showed it to betty and she added him! LOL yes she really likes people like this, i mean creative and innovative. So this new friend who is old according to dates, is really cool! its like having a cool friend is HOT summer.

i came across this on TV and i loved it "i am soo good in bed, that i can sleep for days"

LOL what all can people come up with!

P.s. romance is so last season =D

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i refer to "YOU" as people from nasick! :D

Ps i am so lame-ly innovative these days! =P

lol this is soo :D

What a energising kick start to the day, i woke up to A's dream. After a pleasent sunday i dreamt about A.!!! It is said you dream about things/people that you constantly keep thinking about. =P
So after waking up i couldnt help smiling my way to glory. But i dint know my pasta had left a strong impact on dadus stomach, he asked me to make it again! I was like woah! Last night i made chicken pasta in white alfredo sauce, so i thought lets variate and play with flavours i made a pasta with indian touch! Red and green chillies! It was yummilicious! Today was the "Dday" because all my brothers had their results today, and man they all made it! Dadu got all his matches and will soon eat sleep and breathe money! But hey, wait along with that i heard everyone speaking about him getting married! Where did that come from? Arent we purpose to just spare him that horror now? I wanted to yell and cry and do everything to stop mom from even picking that topic! Thats my nightmare! But i took it easy! And just remembered ignorance is bliss, but not always! But i tried to be off track. Dadu was so freaking happy in fact everyone was! My cooking spree was still on i made the entire dinner again but it was all indian today. But good things never come alone they come along with thier evil cousin, now dadu would be leaving in less then 4 months time again, i hate that i am more comfortable with my brothers then with anyone on earth. I enjoy with them like a transgender lol. More like the best of both worlds- the girl and the guy. Tomorrow is the new year according to our tradition and what i killer way to start a new year. I am so glad this is happening and i am home to vitness this. I am a rich mans sister now! =D
I downloaded movies and finally settled on to watching alice in wonderland , yes again! I loved it all over again.. I got a text from RO that hes here and we could meet, and fuckness i had i great time with him.. And i went through my previous posts and noticed that i dint mention that a met my ex, and yes am glad its over. He is a waste, he tried gettings cheesy and goody good boy with me but dint work.. He actually looked like a dork! I wonder many of people i meet are brain dead, they look good till they dont speak. I wonder what it must be like to have such a lame and dead life. But i need to get rid of my insecurity, it will kill me someday, yes it really will. Sounds perfect "insecure bitch" =P.
I am on the bed cuddled up nicely and just ready to doze off. I have modified the promises i made to A and to myself so just trying to keep up with it :)

P.s. I am/was still smiling thinking about the dream and A!!! :*


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is "textually active" =P

I believed that i cook non-relatively of moods and course of events happening around me, but i guess i am too a moody cook. I cook when i am happy or sad or even when i am bored i dont do it for the heck of it but it always has some reason behind it. It was a nice sunday afternoon i was doing what i enjoy the most watching movies at home with my brothers it was a total crap movie but we enjoyed it with the pinch our nasty comments. I was glad that i enjoyed so much, so i called it a dinner time tonight. I thought of making pasta and baking pizzas. And to lords mercy i made it extremly brilliant! None of them could stop at one serving! I was on highest possible cloud that time. Before i could click pictures to mail them to A and betty the dinner was vanished into the human vanishland- the stomach!!!! I cooked indian food for dad and i made the chapatis too, like for the first time, dad dint crib but just admired it. And i did all of this all alone in less then 90mins time. I thank my mom for transfering her genes to do things efficiantly even if its cooking. It was a great sunday. =)

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hatred is the love that's been injured. If you have hatred in your heart, it means you have love in it also.

''The Women of Lockerbie'' by Deborah Brevoort

Betty sent this to me ! i agreee with this partially not completly!

Neolithic. me

JOHNNY's personal QUOTES!

• I remember carving my initials on my arm and I've scarred myself from time to time since then. In a way your body is a journal and the scars are sort of entries in it.
• These are the most important people in my life. You know, I would die for these people. If someone were to harm my family or a friend or somebody I love - I would eat them. I might end up in jail for 500 years - but I would eat them.
• [about his first marriage] I guess I have very traditional kinds of sensibilities about that kind of stuff - you know, a man and a woman sharing their life together and having a baby, whatever - and I think for a while I was trying to right the wrongs of my parents because they split up when I was a kid, so I thought I could do it differently - make things work. I had the right intentions, but the wrong timing - and the wrong person. But I don't regret it; I had fun and I learned a lot.
• I started smoking at 12, lost my virginity at 13 and did every kind of drug there was by 14. Pretty much any drug you can name, I've done it. I wouldn't say I was bad or malicious, I was just curious. I certainly had my little experiences with drugs. Eventually, you see where that's headed and you get out.
• I was a weird kid. I wanted to be Bruce Lee. I wanted to be on a SWAT team. When I was five, I think I wanted to be Daniel Boone.
• There's a drive in me that won't allow me to do certain things that are easy. I can weigh all the options, but there's always one thing that goes: "Johnny, this is the one." And it's always the most difficult - it's always the one that will cause the most trouble.

I think i was wasting my time watching CRAPPY movies with dumb and fictional romance!!

I "HEART" this

LOVE SEX AUR DHOKA DARRRRLINGG,

this is hilarious ! i am so waiting for this movies!

8 am in the morning! I am on my way to bbay. All i'am feeling right now is nostalgic, i want that one evening with A all over again. Betty is really busy and am glad she is, unlike me! I am uncomfartable with world these days! I hate(pity) them! They grow dumb with every passing day. But thats fine as long as i have my people to fall back on. I had gone to school day before, it was so pleasing and cheered my senses instantly. Thats the magic BARNES has on me. I met rohan after three years! And i had a time of my life, all the things that we did sitting in class 10A and 8A were so stupid but so much fun. Back then i never thought i would be where i am, i still dont believe that school is over. Over the years the boy i was has just managed to calm down, i have shifted more towards feminity, feels nice though. I never had thought that my life would ever converge with A's life again but it did and then as they say the rest was history. I really want to visit betty and see the world, i want to explore places and meet new people and see what is it like "seeing the world" i am sure people everywhere face the same problem. I dont have issues with inner me but the outer world! I am quite okay with studying for hours now because betty said promise the one you love something and you will do it, do it, for them! So i did, i promised A and also myself! I cant degrade with growing up because i dont want to be amongst the stereotyped crowd. By every passing year i realise how stupid i was in the previous year. All i am trying to do these days is just work on myself because i want to see what i will turn into, i am i really what i claim myself to be or there is something beneath the layers of my mysterious character. I am a dreamer by the end of it all though :))


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"UNSUITABLE CONTENT"

I refer to "PITY" as HATE. so when i hate you , i pity you

:)

OmFg.. Hairfall is almost reduced! It feels great! This is the best time "being home". I missing A terribly.

OmFg.. Hairfall is almost reduced! It feels great! This is the best time "being home". I missing A terribly.

I like the word "HOPE" its nither positive or negative!!

P.s. Tojo had told me this! :)

One more song that i love! it always feels great to have brothers with great choice of music! i never find the need to download the songs! they have it ALL! :)

i heart my brothers!

This is something that has captured my mind! this is an amazing song!

P.s.Courtesy R

I am at the coffee shop trying to study, but somehow today i am in no mood of doing so. All i am doing is texting tojo and looking around, i cant figure out "HOW" to study, but i need work my ass out because the exam dates are nearing and i before i loose my mind i need to start "book humping" lol. The city is so hot that i already have sun burns! I need to find the loop holes of studying. Its been 38mins that i am here but i hardly read more then 2pages. And i have 5 subjects to go!!!! I had a crazy evening yestarday with my cousins i really had a GOOD GOOD NIGHT! I want to study so much but i dont know whats stopping me?!?! Or is it the lazy me. Sometimes there is so much we want to do but then we never end up doing them. So i think i should stop blogging and study again. Lol

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Okay. I love mobile bloging.its so much fun. I am out with my brothers for dinner and then movie. Its a mess because we are all broke and our cashier is not interested is dinner, he will later join us for the movie. But its so much more fun. I am loving this time. We plan to dine-n-dash.. Lol we are a crazy bunch of people.

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P.s. I had a crazy time studying in barista. They love me i guess lol, the free coffees and custom made coffees are great to study with.. Yikes! I am such a cheapo.

Last night A said its enough and its not funny anymore! Maybe hes right! Its not funny.but i love him. Thats enough for me i guess. But the catch right now is my exams! My syllabus is so vast that i wonder if i can do it.but betty asked me to start studying today so i pulled up my socks and went to barista to study.it was a decent 2hrs of study. But the obnoxious people rather the couples were making out in the coffee shop. It totally disgusts me to see people getting intimate in public places.i did leagal language today, walter rowland's trail to be specific.it was very interesting.then i went with S to the dam! It was sunny and hot..but we had fun singing shaddy songs on my dio. We stopped near a place with yards of mango trees.. I asked her to steal the mangoes..she has always been my partner in crime.. It was too much fun... Shes is my soul! She can provoke me to do things i never did because of fear! The day was a totall oh-whatever-day. But i like it this way

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This is my first post via mobile blog! Only for betty... I am home finally and already de-stressed.. Everything looks just great around me.. I am loving this..


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ME AIN'T GIVING UP! :)

Mr. A this ones for you!! i miss you!