uh..umm... i have issues, yes i have huge issues with people that make up the society. 'A' was right "society has evolved in a wrong way where boys never turn into men , and girls keeping looking around. chappri Indians are even worse" maybe he himself was fake! but what he said has finally come to life now. i m finally off facebook, i can hear my heart yelling a "thank you, for saving me from the daily torture". I have nearly 400friends on facebook i hardly talk to only 5 on an average daily basis. most of them are males, few from college few from school and few just friends of friends. school people i realize it was good till it lasted thinking about it now it sucks, people from college nice on face, diplomatic and want to be right there on the top i dont know i have had this weird habit to portray myself like a blonde bimbo who loves to shop and loves pink but since school when i passed with unexpected marks or even high school, losers had it right in their face! i hate bragging about how big a scholar i m. I dont crack smart jokes or even read news papers, i suck at current affairs and world news! if that makes me OH-SO-DUMB, great i m dumb. I'm not a peoples person! i cant bitch behind back, act as if it was need of time to be with them. NO i m not that! i suck with music thats what i have been hearing! okay? so what now? i should listen to music according to people just to satisfy the cooler crowd around me? like was i prescribed a life? with do's and dont's? NO i wasn't. the reason i deactivated facebook is, it is becoming the reason for my hatred towards most of the people, moreover people get easy access to you! i hate the fact that any jerk can just know whats up with your life. I'm born in a place where every breathing soul thinks they were born with a tag of being cool. jeez i mean smoking, drinking or smoking up is cool, failing for more then once is also cool. having cars is cool, having i phone and blackberry is uber cool. having a group of people and posting pictures of every god damn thing isn't it like abusing the technology? and wanna attempts to snatch more attention . first constantly bitch about the other person and on facebook "oh my i love you" and other nonsense! being in the same fucking city having cell phones they write on walls? hmmm what next? people who dont bother talking to you like your updates, if you really like tell me not facebook. and then end number of groups? i can go on and on about this whole shitt! leaving few people i can count on fingers have a notice me invisible tag.none the less facebook is a platform for gossiping umm no its like a race to be the cool gang, the cool person. this is the ugly truth! no matter how many people deny it! and then i m the one people have problem with that i m too hated around , i am too blunt i am too this i am too that! yes i m and i have few people who love me for that! from the movies i watch to what colour i like all is a problem! honestly i m the most easy to get along but with the moment i see fakeness i get weird! i hate it! the people who claim to be liked around and are nice are the real bad people! honestly i m one of the nicest human being possible! I love gossiping but bitching is not my cup of tea! i will blatantly say whatever i have on the face, umm the genuine reason to be hated all around! i might sound pissed but i am not =P . my hand hurts which is why my language twists and turns! people say i talk alot, well yes i do i have this urge to express myself on anything and everything. i love being with myself or with betty! there is soo much peace! even RA from college is a no hassle girl i adore her! SH from lst is darling. but the rest are such jerks! i m too loud in public yes i m i love it! just like how people say "its like having fun". the next thing i am going to do is kill all people who annoy me and cover it up by saying its called having fun!! hahah! i m so funny =P . i love this blog because this is my blog and i can write whatever i want too and about whoever i want! and now everybody who reads this post is going to think this girl is out of her mind! no one will accept it that they live to survive in race! they will be in a denial! but again not like i care! this is my blog ! (i just had this weird idea i am going pass on a chain text msg asking everyone to read this , as a reason to leave facebook..people who care enough will read if not it still makes no difference). I am going to have to stop playing a match maker because when things are fixed you dont exsist! this is not me this is my experience talking. blogging is soo far the best thing happened to me! betty cares enough to check my posts everyday ! oh btw not that i wasnt trying to be in the race! yes i was but now im off it! =D not that i am parfait! =P yes i was trying hard too ! but fuck it!!! hard work was never for me!

ps this is me... right in your faces! =D

rest later

xoxo

i am just too fabulus!! god new desi clothes new rings and new nail enamel all's too hot!! either my mom is blessed with a amazing daughter like me or i m too lucky to have her as my mom! not to forget i new rainy footwear and bags and watches!! too much for the days! moreover S also got me stuff ... nice to see how just few people love you more then the million people!! i remember till yestarday i was pissed with the world! and here i go falling in love with myself!! self obsession is an art i mastered! and yes i still terribly miss dr.D.. my younger maternal cousins got the old zamane ka video game and yay i ll be playing mario and tank and contra! i miss cartoon network the powerfuff girls and popye episodes i download will get over in a day or two..! now i want captain planet and then adams family and even scooby do.. okay this is a incomplete post! =P i will write things in the latter one!

till then

xoxo

p.s main apni favorite hu!

PERFECCTTT DAY!!

Why?? i am too complicated! too materialized.. too loud..too snobbish..very choosy..very pricey.. but whatever i m i enjoy being myself! if i have to alone to be myself i'd rather do that! people are so fake so pretentious! i cant trust on anybody else accept betty and K. i am suffering from bad hair days! i loved my hair the most! and i seem to be loosing on it! I'm trying to show i m all fine. but DAMN i miss Dr.D.. the house is so dull! i have decided to make my 19th year the most amazing year of my life! social networking sucks! it does! but love it hate it you cant ignore it! right more then anything in life what i want to steadiness in everything from studies to internship, from friends to family from shopping to dieting! everything! i've gone dark like 5 shades! I've lately been in a cross with myself! lately AB has been upset with her relationships and she wants to be hooked up really badly! shes in a situation where she doesn't know what to do! whether to eat or to keep! but each ones to his own! i m helping her . BUT who will help me?? betty is miles away! i know what i want! im just too fussy! i had thought i m going to act real frugal and save it up all for my shopping year end! seems like god forgot to add "savings" to my memory! my bank balance is ZERO! yes it is! i feel like a lunatic i buy stuff i loose it and then i again buy it! now i all i want to do is invest in a nice watch and a nice bag! they are like the essentials of living! i m gonna get rid of my layered hair ! i will let it grow in one length!. RO is dating bulldog! like jeez! why??? everyone around me is with wrong respective ones! but when you say it on face! it hurts their balls ! and then some where with time they come up with "i know you were right" i have become like the Yoda of judging people in one go! one thing i hate about myself is, i get obsessed too soon ! with anything and everything absolutely. but i fun with AB after a long time! eye of the tornado seems to finally fading off! but i hope she never has a way back to her BASTURD chutil ex! she is a dirt magnet! i hope things go fine in wonderland now! jeez!! i have become soo dull!! all i post is what i do which is boring! i want fun ! more fun!

betty is off facebook! and i dont even know why! i miss her presence! i wonder whos wall will i post things on!! be back soon!

betty thinks i dont read her blog! i read her blog everyday without fail! no matter what!

i love her! yes like madly badly deeply! shes the amazing-est soul ever put on earth! <3

xoxo!

I swear i wont cut my hair ever in my life! this month i will trim then for the last time! too much change can ruin things!.. grrrr! i hate myself to acting over smart act trying out new looks! no more of it! pain and simple long straight hair! no matter how out of fashion it is! i want my long hair back! =(

i wanna put on my best lounge wear and have hair pulled back with a band and some light make up with the best music and drive all over the country! i love to drive! it makes me happy!

song on my mind right now!

imported from betty's blog i loved this! He was too good to me

How can I get along now?
So close he stood to me
ev'rything seems all wrong now.
He would have brought me the sun.
Making me smile that was his fun.

When I was mean to him,
he'd never say “Go 'way now!”
I was a queen to him
who's going to make me gay now?
It's only natural I'm blue.
He was too good to be true.

- Lorenz Hart

wasnt I a stuck up hidden bitch earlier!! well i was! now i m not!

i love this night!

experiencing the feeling of knowing i might never have it!

p.s. It sounds soo perverted! hahah =D

Confessions of travel bag

23rd morning was my flight to DELHI.i was flying alone for the first time, wait, infant travelling alone for the first time! i arrived @ the IGI airport Delhi!! i stepped out of the airport and FUCKNESS it was grilling hot! i couldn't take it! but i reached the hotel and just rushed for a shower! the cold water droplets for the shower felt like the rain in the amazon forests! relaxing and coooling! i had annoying college mates! few loud, some wanna be's some nerds and some dopers ! it was a interesting group of jerks to be honest! I went to ISIL and attended the first day of the seminar, and it was decent enough! but as i realised the day is passing, i realised my the soul aim of coming to Delhi; that is getting some fun and action was dispersing ! so i left the seminar after lunch! and went shopping! it was ALRIGHT! the next few consecutive days were DULL AND BORING! or even worse if i had to be pricise! i had met alot of people by now! and me being me i already judged people! and it turned out to be soo true. people in there are rude and cold! food wasn't great! guys were hot but dumb ! very few guys were smart as well as good looking! girls have a typical "notice me plea" in their behavior. They think somking, smoking up and drinking and wearing clothes that show your lingerie is soo cool that even Antarctica is insecure! C'mon! like seriously its all in the head! but maybe people there have so because of they think they live in the direct capital on the country! travelling the metros and eating at thella's and street shopping IS SO NOT COOL! They made me feel weird infact like an alien! I missed mom dad brothers cousins coco aunts uncles and ALL THE ATTENTION like i missed a heartbeat! they made me realize the value of everything from the messed up highly infective pink room to my most useless and freakish friends!! and then few days before i was to leave that city i meet few people who were my age, doing law and yes i thought they were kinda my types! it turned out to be soo wrong! Those guys are so regular with smoking up! I've been brought up with alot of values they are nailed into me! so much that when i cross that thin line! i die more 10000 times! but i dont think its the culture. I dont justify my wrong doings but i never over do them! I met this quite interesting guy "V" who dint catch my eye in the first meeting but later on there was something about him, dont know exactly what!! i dont exactly know was that the real him or just the part of him! 4days time is too less to judge somebody! but then shitt happened AND then i realized ONS are not my cup of tea! infact the whole hippy life is not for me! i am somewhere in between i mean i am not the one with the normal lifestyle nor am i the one with extra efforts to try to fit in the crowd! i love myself to such an extent that i want a imperfect love story with the most imperfect guy! makes no sense but thats just me! I'm not pragmatic but i dont even live in the dreamland! if i had to some up the whole trip it would be discovering a side of me which i dint know existed!

The most WHATEVER days.

i hate myself for being so majorly lazy that i dint even update my blog for few weeks! but its never too late! few fortnights before Sa from college told me about the ISIL summer law course! honestly with the brains i have i dint really "WANT TO" attend the course. i wanted some action in life, as i fed up of everything around me! yeah i get bored way too easily! but then i threw tantrums around, acted pricey and snobbish! but with time i realised when ever I'm too eager to get somewhere or things are falling just right in place, my time messes up things! apart that! i went to the city! I not exactly dislike but just that city never really touched that part of my heart when i start getting inclined towards things! before going to DELHI i had some real bad time at home! i thought it would be a break from all people around me! Convincing Pappa and Dr.dadu was a BIG BIG BIG BIG i don't know how big as a pain! too over protective! and Delhi being the crime capital! okay whatever crap! now next post!