All good things come to an end! but WHY :|

After a week of just lolling around in the cosiest room in the house, today i finally thought of posting something.Trust me this ones going to be long!. College has already started and me being me i already missed the first week of my college. I decided this year/this semester ill attend all lectures and events in the college enough of fooling around because when i have nothing to do i think of how much i waste my life, and thats very good to think of. Latly i have been sleeping alot which i dont do on daily basis. and reading also alot no not some fashion booklets but just some sense stuff. I have been playing with coco alot like a kid i have been sleeping with her and making her eat and all sorta nice stuff.I havent been doing anything productive nothing went the way i planned but still was a decent holiday. I am now friends with my ex, yes the one who i am over but he says he wants to be with me now i am getting all sorta "I-TOLD-YOU-SO's" from my friends but never mind i am not a bitter heart not like him atleasted i cant shooo him like the crows in the farm. Whatever time i spent with him was a wonderfull time i am thankfull to him. Sometimes i hate being nice i would prefer rather being bad. And then he calls me up during his study tour he says he's missing me and loves me but its hard for to me belive so i just keep quite. Once the trust is lost its difficult or almost impossible to regain it!!
Recently i got this book "TRUST ME" by RAJASHREE, and i fell in love with it! i could find meself in situations like in the book i think reading makes me calm cuts down on my impulsive-ness. The book is a Chick romance its about Mrperfect break breaks, sex and affaires quite a intresting topic! The terrible cold also seemed to have subsided. I have this new fad of goin camping some where in north east of india. I am tired of wasting my life===> 3hours of college, 4hours of time pass , 4hours fbing, and the rest i don't even want to speak about! i want to keep myself dead busy like time for nothing! Some how i never find myself busy i just don't know why! this year has to the be the most remarked year of my life this time ill do things exactly the way i planned!!
I am planning to take up internship. yes like intern in a law firm! I really want to excell in career sounds so dramatized but yet. I am getting addicted to coffee without sugar : . Right now the best place for me seems like some spa i want to get myself pampered!. I have been getting myself entertained with stupid TV soaps but they some how keep me active with my brains! they are predictable but yet alright to watch. Tojo has been telling me that i still haven't come out of my school. Uuummmmm more like my body had moved out from my school but my soul hasn't. Everyone around me is grow up your 18 you have to face the world but god damn it HOW DO I GROW UP.. When 18years on my life i have been like this how can I ! Just Day before i got myself registered for some seminar in my college. I hope its good. I was suppose to be great at socialising and befriending people all of sudden i lost that somewhere i have become to picky about everything! Some how i figured out reading love stories with happy ending make me happy. I have been hooked to Taylor swift songs the happy ones though, so much random-ness at once. Now i ll be back home after months and as i mentioned i was worried of the i-don't-want-go-back syndrome thankfully it dint come. Somehow missing friends now. I was being a jerk towards bumblee bee but hes a sweetheart it dint take me much efforts to make him be sweet to be! I love him! .. Tojo has been sending some sweet texts which make me feel i have someone to rely on .. One of my Psycho friend andy also is back in life but in a different skin altogether! i am glad this year is getting people who i love closer. Having insane chats with andy at night was just awesome. Coco is just so awesome shes makes me angry and comes to lick me and butter me! her love is so unconditional. GOSH!! this is nice writing everything you want to!! no wonder everybody is blogging these days!
rest later
XOXO