8 am in the morning! I am on my way to bbay. All i'am feeling right now is nostalgic, i want that one evening with A all over again. Betty is really busy and am glad she is, unlike me! I am uncomfartable with world these days! I hate(pity) them! They grow dumb with every passing day. But thats fine as long as i have my people to fall back on. I had gone to school day before, it was so pleasing and cheered my senses instantly. Thats the magic BARNES has on me. I met rohan after three years! And i had a time of my life, all the things that we did sitting in class 10A and 8A were so stupid but so much fun. Back then i never thought i would be where i am, i still dont believe that school is over. Over the years the boy i was has just managed to calm down, i have shifted more towards feminity, feels nice though. I never had thought that my life would ever converge with A's life again but it did and then as they say the rest was history. I really want to visit betty and see the world, i want to explore places and meet new people and see what is it like "seeing the world" i am sure people everywhere face the same problem. I dont have issues with inner me but the outer world! I am quite okay with studying for hours now because betty said promise the one you love something and you will do it, do it, for them! So i did, i promised A and also myself! I cant degrade with growing up because i dont want to be amongst the stereotyped crowd. By every passing year i realise how stupid i was in the previous year. All i am trying to do these days is just work on myself because i want to see what i will turn into, i am i really what i claim myself to be or there is something beneath the layers of my mysterious character. I am a dreamer by the end of it all though :))


rest later
xoxo