12:30 in the noon and my house was filled with cousins, vajumavshi and jui. as usuall i had to make myself and my brothers coffee with toast and jam. i had to wake up A at 12:30 but i was late. the way he wakes up just make me go nuts over him! and then i was watching tv and my harshu was passing the funniest and the stupidest comments! by then it was 2 like time was running hell fast. we dint have a nice lunch but just munched on chips and biscuits and played psp games and watched videos on youtube by then it was 6. i wanted to destress myself so what can be better then cooking! i decided to cook paneer makkhhan wala. yash went to get the stuff and helped me dice the veggies and paneer. he loves cooking too. by 8 it was ready and was yummy! dadu, harshu and yash had food and then again madness soo much of yelling and nonsense happened that mom had to say we are junglis but it was my part of having fun! harshu got pretty frustrated becuase the entire night i spoke on the phone n dint listen to what he had to say but how to tell him inside i was asking for freezing the time! just one day to go! and then we call it a OFF! uhhhhhhhaaa!! i wanted to use all my power and hold it back! but sometimes its not in our hands! we again spoke till 7 30. A dint realise but inside i was asking only for more of him! he thought ill be okay and strong but no after he hung up i wanted to SCREAM MY GUTS OUT!!!! i felt just soo handicapped! again just like when i was leaving school behind and was walking through the gate lodge! damn things have always been weird with me! the song on my mind was we belong together! sometimes guys fail to understand alot of things!i hate arun i can kill him i want to stab him a million times and want him to feel handicapped about it even worser to me!