14th feb. huh what valentines day??? so? big shitt? fuck cares??? not because i dont believe in love but i am in love! i had it but i lost! i want it soo bad! previous post seem soo sadistic and emo-ish! but it is not! it was my mood that i was writing in that affected the way they are penned down! i had to post this because i dont know what i exactly want or what i exactly feel. my greed is more then normal human greed! eating a kala khatta gola isnt satisfying me i want to go hit a store and shop for everything i ever wanted. all i right now want is A so badly. i am missing betty she can make me feel alright! all this is like soo weird. No one wonder i know i am great at PHUCKING THINGS! i make my life difficult all by self! when all i needed was to study where did LOVE come from?? i wish i was autistic then i would be extra ordinarily smart but i couldnt understand emotions! that would be so cool! okay no it isnt cool! but it would have better then this! I WANT I WANT NEED A right now!!